The devastated relatives of missing woman Leah Croucher, whose brother killed himself last month, say they have ‘cancelled Christmas’ this year.
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Leah Croucher, 20, disappeared in February this year while walking to work and has not been seen since despite a huge police search.
Her brother Haydon, 24, was found hanged last month just a day before the nine-month anniversary of her disappearance.
Relatives of the siblings have told how they had cancelled Christmas because the ‘sadness keeps on coming.’
The sibling’s older sister Jade, 26, said: “The sadness just keeps coming with the force of a truck.
“It is a month since we lost our brother.
“Leah I know in my heart that there is nothing in this world that would stop you from being at his funeral!
“What or who is stopping you from being here? Are you in heaven with Haydon? Are you looking after one another? Will you ever come home to us?
“The sad truth is – we just don’t know but the loss that I feel from you being missing for 10 months feels the same intensity as grieving, that’s for sure.”
She added: “I am finding it so difficult to accept that Haydon is gone, I am finding it so difficult that we still have no answers about what has happened to Leah.
“I find it difficult that at a time of year where everyone is surrounded by love, I have lost my brother and sister.
“My fears grow every day, my heart physically aches for them both. Why has the world dealt us such a bad card?”
Leah’s father John Croucher said described their pain as “unbearable.”
He said: “Our pain at losing Haydon is unbearable.
“We know Leah would have been at her brother’s funeral if she could have. Something terrible is stopping her from being here with us.”
Suicide is a difficult choice for those left behind to deal with and understand.
John added: “So much pain to try to deal with – made a million times worse because we know if Leah was still here so would Haydon.”
He revealed on the day of Haydon’s funeral earlier this month, police officers knocked on his door with another “lead” regarding Leah.
He said: “Our horrible life does not pause because we lost our kind, wonderful son.
“Just before Haydon’s funeral, the police arrived, apologizing for the intrusion at this difficult time but there was another patch of land to search.
“The end result – nothing as usual. But there was time spent wondering if we would have two funerals this month to organize.
“At least they would be back together. Two children to say final goodbyes to.
“We started 2019 with a hopeful attitude that it would be another good year – family holidays to look forward to, favorite meals to cook, laughs and love to come.
“We’re ending the year wondering what has happened to make everything fall apart in such spectacular fashion.”
UnivLeah disappeared while on her way to work at an office in Milton Keynes Friday, Bucks, on Friday, Feb 15 aged 19.
If there is anyone out there who knows anything about Leah’s disappearance can call police on 101, or Crime stoppers anonymously and free on 0800 555 111.
